New Year's Eve

Funny enough, even though I've been blogging daily I still haven't posted all my Christmas pictures. Truthfully, I've felt deflated the last couple weeks. Billy has been incredibly supportive as my analyzing nature has worked overdrive with the circumstances that happened earlier in the month. Note to self: It just is what it is and I need to get let it go. I can't control or change Papa passing or losing a second opportunity to adopt a child. While my heart is heavy with the losses I just have to keep moving forward. I cry a bit every day, dry myself off and go live out my day. I did enjoy Christmas, spending time with family and seeing the looks on people's faces with the gifts we gave them. I've also enjoyed playing with my new 'toys' as well. I think right now I need to focus on moving forward knowing I'm not carrying disappointments alone. Something in my thinking is just frumpy right now for lack of a better phrase. It's not the first thing that hasn't gone my way in my life. I'm sure it won't be the last. Some are harder to shake off than others. As much as I try to, as I said the other day in bible class, "plan but not hold too tightly leaving room for God's timing and plans" I still find myself comparing and measuring against some pre-set standard in my own head. God will continue to grow, mature and teach us through both joys as well as the sorrows. My comfort is the God of all power never leaves me. The next time I get panicked over something happening to Billy driving in the ice I have to remember God is there in control. Even if he is next, God will never leave me. Did I mention moving forward is hard right now? All right, I've allowed myself my ten minutes (an idea from Amy w, thank you) and then some to think about it for today. While I don't make resolutions, I do see a new year before us with God's love and plans for the future. Today is a short work day followed by an evening filled with good friends celebrating the new year.

I've successfully completed my December Daily, not always original material but I did it :-) Thank you Kim M. for the push to do something different here. MY New Year's gift to my readers here is I shall go back to my previous interval of entries as I'm inspired to do so. If you're interested in getting the emails for the Daily Bible Reading program I've posted this last year, they are starting fresh tomorrow. Pick your program and start getting your emails of God's word daily :-) http://internet.prestoncrest.org/bible-reading-program. Program 1 is only Old & New Testament. I did program 2 which was Old, New Testament and Gospel in 2008, so for 2009 it will be program 3: Daily scripture focusing on:Love of God’s Word (Psalm 119); Old Testament Passage; Suffering & Love (Job, Ecclesiastes, Song of Songs); Psalm; Proverbs; Gospels; Early Church (Acts); New Testament Passage; Leadership (1,2 Timothy, Titus) It's quite a bit more scripture which sounds like a challenge :-)