Hello July

Hello to a new month and a fresh no. Traveling places gets my body out of wack in general and so I was late. It gets my hopes up more than I allow it anymore. It makes the no so much harder. It makes me want to retreat from the world so no one else is subjected to my ugly heart, to the neediness I know only God can fill, to passive aggressive attempts to fill me up, to the anger and the grief that is part of this roller coaster. I just need your prayers today. I need to go pray and read myself...