Light at the end of the Tunnel

So to update from the pro and con list from before, after much discussion, thought and prayer I placed my notice this week at the preschool. In the end it was about being there for Billy and my health. My first earthly responsibility and commitment is to my husband. I know I will cry the last day saying goodbye to the children whom I have come to care for very much. I also feel a huge weight off my shoulders and a break from the guilt I've been experiencing. I just didn't know going in this that it would be as much of a draw on my immune system as it has. I've never had a job for this short of time but trying to remember I'm doing this for the right reasons. God brought that opportunity for reasons some of which I can see, I'm not sure why for so short of time, but that's humbling as well as I've prided myself in loyalty in the past for longevity of previous employment. That is not my identity, even my gifts and talents from God are not my identity.

To celebrate for the first time in a month Billy and I went out on a date :-)) We went to PF Changs ( they have a gluten free menu, makes it sooo easy for me and I HIGHLY recommend the shrimp with lobster sauce, it's on the regular menu as well) and then window shopped for furniture. It was a gorgeous night out and I enjoyed the time to walk in the cool night air with my husband just spending time together this evening. *happy sigh*. I coughed during all of it, but I think much of this energy burst to still go out after a full day of preschoolers is mentally knowing there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Thank you Sarah, Katy, Amy and Brooke for listening over the last couple of weeks and praying through the decision that needed to be made. My people pleaser portion of my personality really kicked in not wanting the directors to think less of me or be mad about my decision. I tapped in to all of that Human Resource experience I've had to be as professional and respectful as possible. I don't want to focus on the negative having sour grapes which is always easy to let out after mentally separating myself from a situation, sort of like a negative form of closure. I have to remind myself at these times that no position, no situation, no person is perfect or ever will be. It's my responsibility to control my thoughts, behaviors and actions. I can focus on the negative or the positive ( the situation is the same regardless), it's up to me.

By the way after hearing several times to drink the water at school, who ever come up with the phrase "drink the water" as a reference to getting pregnant?? I'll lick the water fountain if that's the case :-)
( I know gross image, but you get the jist)