Results

Doctor's tests came back and the main thing they were testing for cam back negative. So, it's not whooping cough, but a icky case of bronchitis. I finished the antibiotics on Tuesday so according to one of my reliable inside medical resources (thx, Amy!) I'm not contagious :-) I was starting to have cabin fever after a week being inside barely talking from the coughing, which I guess is a good sign that I want to do something else than lay there and sleep.

Today was the fall kick off of our Ladies Bible study that I'm very excited about. We are going through the Psalms, specifically 120-134. I'm hoping to find a job where I can continue to attend. All I can do is ask God, it's up to Him either way. I'm building up a bit more energy every day.

Also from sharing yesterday about some feelings and emotions and a conversation with my sweet husband last night and my friend Amy today reminded me of a couple of things about myself. Yes, I linger in my thoughts about topics, I talk about them when most people have far moved on to other things. I think other people might exhibit this behavior such as in hesitating to make a decision over a purchase, wanting to make sure they get the best product for the best price. I want to do the right things for the right reasons and I believe that requires thought and prayer even after the fact. I think it was my college business communications class that said the meaning of words aren't in the words themselves but in each person. It's why something that offends one person doesn't another based on what that comment means to them, past history, etc... Insecurity became a bad word to me when used as against me in the past, giving it this power and label over me. My definition of insecurity is someone who doesn't know who they are or what their worth is. I know who God says I am and what I am capable of through him. I know other people may think that I am because I am not an assertive, ambitious person. From the Captivating study I did last year, I veer more towards possibly being a wallflower than a dominating personality. All that to say, I'm glad for this place to mull over and articulate why something should be such a hot button. Thank you for your sweet comments Liesl, Chelsa and Brooke on my out loud thinking yesterday, I really appreciate the encouragement, understanding and love shown. I pray to grow from life's experiences according to God's will as His work is not finished in me.